Vertigo

I'm not feeling well these few weeks... Always feeling dizzy inside my head...

For the first week, I didn't feel any strange, but when I told my mom about this dizzy thing, she was worried and said that will take me to a doctor. Then we went to a doctor, and doctor said that it was Vertigo.

It was the first time I heard about this disease.

Wikipedia explanation for Vertigo :

My Favorite Country

Since I was a child, since I know about country, since I love to read manga, since I know about season, since I know about language, I have a dream. I tell myself that if I can, If I have money, I would like to go to Japan.

I don't know why, I really wish I can see that country myself, not just by picture, by video or by any media.

I love all about Japan, I think. I love their language, that's why I try hard to learn Nihon Go. Sometimes I think it's difficult, its grammar is so complicated, more complicated than English, I think. But I never give up. I'm just learning Basic 2 now, but I really hope that one day I can speak Japanese well. And I wish that Nihon Jin will say, あなた の 日本語 が じょうず ですね。

My Failure

Today, I got a badnews..

I really want "it", but then I fail to get "it". When I got that news, just one word come to my mind, "F**k". I've been trying hard and did my best. I don't think that I do anything wrong. I've done my best, and I really don't know why I fail.

I remember I've been asked what is my failure, and that time I can't give him an answer, coz I didn't find out my failure. Now, if he asked me, maybe I can tell him my failure.

I never think that my life is over coz of this failure and giving up like this, coz I know that God help me to make decision. Actually I have two goal : A.(get "it")and B.(...)